This year with so much rain the yard has become a jungle and it alone is a full time job. The garden has gone to pot. And there is the house..... and the animals..... and the decisions.
Calgon take me away!
It is not that I am regretting my decision to down size and full time. I am excited to move to the next phase of my life. But realistically, I find myself beginning to grieve the loss of my present life. I have been a mom and foster parent for all of my adult life. Here I am, in my sixties and I am wanting to do some exploring, visiting, and just plain wanting to redefine myself for this latter part of my life. Even if I weren't going to move to full time traveling, I would need to downsize from where I live now. The work, the house, the property, the animals.... it is just too much for me to keep up with.
Is it selfish of me to want it all???? The reality is I can't afford it all.
I have to make a choice.
So I've decided to full-time for a while and see where that leads me. I may find I need to have a home base, only time will tell. There are lots of ways folks have made life work for them once they are open to the idea of change. And I have 2 daughters and my Auntie here in Spokane, which has for the most of my life been home. I also have a daughter and her family in Connecticut. I also have so many places to see and experience that it is hard to know where I will hang my hat.
I have read many blogs that talked of the relief as you let go of things and move towards the future. Did everyone skip over the hard parts? Or were they to hard to write about? Or did you just think no one would want to know the nitty gritty details? And then there are all the decisions! Geezs... these are the times I would love to push of some of these decisions for someone else to make.
Ok Ok . One foot in front of another.... Tomorrow is another day.
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Today.
Here's To
My Future:
Ok Kids..... How did you get through the tough times?
I need some encouragement here......
