Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Spring, the Universal Symbol of New Beginnings

All of my being seems focused on the endings that are transpiring on a daily basis.    While some of these endings bring on a sense of sadness, others just trigger observations of these changes mixed with nostalgic memories as I am moving forward into the next chapter.

Over the weekend the donkeys went to their new home.  I have been in contact with my beloved horse, Scat’s new owner.  She loved the donkeys from the first moment that she saw them...  How would it be possible to not love them.... They followed us all over the pasture licking my hands begging for attention.

She wanted the girls too.  So donkeys went to their new home on Friday night.  I know the 4H kids will love them too and they will love all the attention and activity that will surround them.

Bye sweet girls.... See you in June !!

Yet another big push on the house.

I made arrangements for a donation center (that benefits local homeless teens) to pic up the remaining furniture and they picked it up today.  I hauled most of it out to the garage last night and they took out the family room couch today.  The only furniture left in the house is my Lazyboy chair, a blow up bed and a TV and my rocking lawn chair which are all in the living room.

The rest of the house echos walk as I walk through the nearly empty rooms.  Piles of this and that seem occupy several rooms.  Currently 3 of the 5 bedrooms are empty and completely cleaned as are 2 of the 3 bathrooms.  Quite a contrast to the homey vision shown in the real estate sales add.

In a way this makes it easier as this is not the place I have loved.
I'm already detaching from it as my home.

Spring is everywhere
Proud Momma House Finch
Four little eggies

I won't be hear for their new beginnings but they will fly off into their new chapter of life without me.

I'm experiencing nostalgic memories of all the moments of the last 13 1/2 years while living in this house.  I have been  living out a wonderful lifetime dream.   Every where I go in my yard, pasture barns and house are memories of shared times, memories, people and events.  Memories of the Easter egg hunts, horse rides, camp-fires, sleep-outs in the teepee and all the family gatherings.  I have pictures and many, many memories and I will take them all with me.

Surprisingly, I am not feeling overwhelmed with sadness.  I do feel a quiet peace, a readiness to move on into the next chapter of my life.  And tired, yes, very tired.  I am allowing myself some time of quiet nothing, to let my body and mind have a chance to recover from the momentum that it has taken to get here.  Looking back over the last few month, I have accomplished a great deal...

January - Walking again without crutches. Seriously down-sizing begins.  New furnace, New roof.          Many, Many trips to the dump.
February -   Getting house ready  to be listed for sale.  New bathroom.  More dump runs.
March - House listed with multiple listing on March 12, 2013, getting ready for showings, disappearing for showings, cleaning for showings   
April - Full price offer on the house on April 2.  beginning to empty the house.

There have been a couple of bumps... (the buyer was notified his job was ending.  The Union ensured that he was moved into another position so the sale was back on.)  The buyers got married a week ago so now we are waiting for them to get a copy of there marriage certificate to add to the home loan application.  Then the final papers to be signed for closing.

I certainly have come a long... long way.  Other than the day I had help moving the furniture, I have done this by myself.  

Note to would be full-timers...  Dreaming is just the first step.  No dream comes true without the work.  I have always liked the fairy tales where the fairy godmother waves the magic wand and presto... everything is done!  Unfortunately, it doesn't WORK that way.

 If I can do it, you can too.
But you have to want it enough!
Sometimes I have wondered if I have wanted it enough.
But here I am. 

I can feel the changes in the air....
Spring it is the time of renewal and new beginnings.

I have earned this.
I am Ready.


  1. You certainly have earned this and you do sound ready! I'm so proud of you and excited for you!

  2. Such a touching post. Detachment is the word that comes to mind. A little bit every day in preparation for the final goodbuy.

  3. I am in awe. I am slowing down the purchases for the new apartment as I keep remembering all the 'stuff' I have in storage back East. I keep dragging my feet on some of the change, but at least I'm in the location I intended. I'm letting my changes so far sink in as I look to see what my next step is. Congratulations on getting everything in line so fast, and it really was fast.

  4. Yes you have earned all the good things in the ending story. I am really happy for you. And you have done this all by your self is a really big and great accomplishment. Go forth and enjoy all your travels.

  5. A beautiful post that shows how in touch you are with yourself and the life around you. Frame this one to remind you should you ever forget how amazing you are. I am so happy and excited for you!

  6. made me cry......I've been on the road (technically anyway) for six months and am nowhere near as far as you are. I am in awe of what you have accomplished and will plug along, hoping I can eventually accomplish the mind change as well as you have. Happy Trails my friend. You've come a long way (baby).

  7. What you claim will be yours!
    Box Canyon Mark

  8. Your post so spoke to me. Your path is such an encouragement. So glad to see what you have accomplished and can look forward to.

  9. You have accomplished a lot in a short amount of time. I can feel your excitement as you begin this next chapter in your life.